Elliott Page was asked to wear a skirt at the Juno premiere

“I wish I could go back and experience it now. Just like me.”

Elliott Page A look back at his experience after the 2007 film’s release Juneau in a new article gentleman.

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Although Elliott has been acting since he was a child, Juneau Undoubtedly the actor’s breakthrough role – even earning him an Oscar nomination.However, Elliott long ago make it public as trans.

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“when Juneau At the height of its popularity, during awards season, I wore heels and the whole look,” he wrote. “I’m not so good, I don’t know how to talk to anyone about it. “

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Elliott mentioned his friend, actress Katherine Keener, as one of the few people he could open up to.

Before Juneau, Elliott said, was able to wear what he wanted while doing news or attending a film festival — while still understanding the “fancy” of the event.As the premiere changes Juneau at the Toronto Film Festival. “I said I wanted to wear a suit, and Fox Searchlight was basically like, ‘No, you need to wear a skirt,'” he recalls.

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“They made me wear a skirt and then…That’s it. then all Juneau Media, all photos – Michael Cera in slacks and sneakers. “

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“It’s easy to roll your eyes, but you know what? No. That’s really, really bad,” he said. “It doesn’t matter if I’m trans! I’ve had people apologize for things: ‘Sorry, I didn’t know, I didn’t know at the time.’ It doesn’t matter! It doesn’t matter if I’m trans or cisgender. A lot of cisgender women wear what I wear. This Fuck it has nothing to do with it.

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“I know people don’t get it. ‘Oh fuck you, you’re famous, you’re rich, you have to wear skirts, shhh.’ I don’t no Understand that reaction. But it’s mixed with this: I want people to understand that that shit literally almost killed me,” he continued, noting his struggles with food, depression, anxiety and panic attacks to the point of being unable to read script.

“I had to talk to people who were like, ‘Okay, I’m not trans, I can wear skirts!’ Like, cool. Okay,” he said. “In my early to mid-twenties, I didn’t know how to tell people how uncomfortable I was. I would blame myself for it. I lived this life, my dreams were coming true, and all of this was happening.”

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“People, especially teenage girls, real Respond to that character, Juno,” he said. “Then you let the movie have the success it’s had, and the main, main profit between the film and the soundtrack — and then you fucking squeeze it all out. Lost. You squish it. So you benefit a lot from this role of connecting with people, and then you do. too disgusting. “

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“I wish I could go back and experience it now. Like me,” he added.

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You can read Elliot’s full article here.

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