Chris Fountain has spoken about the depression he experienced after being sacked by Coronation Street when he posted a rap video about women online.
The 34-year-old actor, who played Tommy Duckworth on the soap before leaving in 2013, rapped rape in a shocking segment that he said had ‘dim’ his career prospects to date.
Chris discusses his difficulties with Coronation Street actor Ryan Thomas and his brothers Adam and Scott. manx on the mic podcast.
Candid: Chris Fontaine talks about depression he experienced after being axed in Coronation Street when he posted a rap video about women online
Speaking of his mental health issues, Chris said: “I’ve been through some really dark, scary places to the point where I realised I needed to start changing the way I think – otherwise I probably wouldn’t be here.
“My life, my job, my image, my reputation – everything was taken away. In 24 hours. I didn’t leave my house for four days.
Chris said he realized he had depression because his head was like a “swamp”.
He added: “I’ve never been so chaotic before. I was going to go this morning, but it was cancelled because they didn’t want me to go there. After a while, I thought, ‘I think I’m going through depression. “
Controversy: The 34-year-old actor, who played Tommy Duckworth on the soap before leaving in 2013, rapped rape in a shocking segment that he says has left his career prospects ‘dimming’ to this day (The picture shows Coronation Street)
After leaving Coronation Street, Chris appeared on the show Girlfriends in 2018 and also starred in regional dramas, but it is suspected that his job prospects are still affected by the video.
He said: “As much as I like to say that everything is fine and everything is cool, as far as the job is concerned, it’s pretty bad.
‘Did I not have a job because of that [the scandal], or I didn’t get a job because I wasn’t as good an actor as I once thought? I don’t know if I will find that answer.
However, Chris insisted that he hadn’t given up on his acting ambitions, saying: “I’m really upset, really pissed off and upset, but now, I kind of don’t like it.
‘I can’t do anything else. Just because that happened, I can’t just say, “Yeah, I need to stop being an actor now”. I have been an actor since I was ten years old.
Interview: Chris discusses his struggles with Coronation Street actor Ryan Thomas (pictured) and his brothers Adam and Scott on their Mancs On The Mic podcast
The actor added that he knew the rap video was a terrible mistake.
He said: “I can’t condone anything I’ve said. I’m ashamed of it, I’m embarrassed by it, but at the time I wasn’t thinking, ‘Yeah, I want to be very vicious to women’. It wasn’t.
“I probably respect women more than men because the way I was raised and the passion, care and protection women have for me has been incredible throughout my life.”
Chris described some of the thoughts that came to his mind after the impact of the video.
He said: “You just sit in that hole and say, ‘Oh my God, I’m so bad. I am a terrible person. I have nothing to offer anyone. “That was my darkest hour.
Chris said: “I’ve been through some really dark, scary places to the point where I realised I needed to start changing my way of thinking – otherwise I probably wouldn’t be here”
The actor added that his family and friends — including former co-star Ryan — have helped him through tough times.
Chris, who said he still had panic attacks at times, said: “All of a sudden things started throwing at me and I couldn’t breathe.”
The soap star said he “made a lot of money” from his six years as Justin Burton at the Hollyoaks and continues to live off it.
Career-wise, however, he feels he’s on the “edge of a cliff”, saying: “Don’t get me wrong, I’m still really worried about my career. I’ve never done anything else. I’ve never gotten any Other work, never.
In 2013, there was a video of Chris rapping under a pseudonym, and in an offensive clip, he talked about dragging a girl upstairs, adding: “I’ll hit anyone up in the worst possible way. , raped her birthday.’
At the time of the incident, Chris said, the explicit lyrics “blurred out at the moment of madness”.
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The actor added: “I’m still very worried about my career. I’ve never done anything else. I’ve never done any other work” (taken in 2011)